Knitter Scarlet

As those of you who have seen my Etsy shop will know, I make and sell beaded jewellery. For those of you who don't then you can check some of the jewellery I make in my Etsy shop at http://www.knitterscarlet.etsy.com

A month ago, I decided to take some of my jewellery to my "stitch'n'bitch" knitting meeting to try and sell some of it, and I was shocked to not just sell a couple of the necklaces, but to also get commissions.

I duly made the necklaces and here they are for you to see.

Once I had finished these I began a new design, but realised half way through that I did not have the correct beads, so undid some of it and this is what I left as I thought it looked really attractive. This necklace you will be able to find in my Etsy store soon.

The customer's were so happy with their necklaces that they decided to commission some more and also other ladies were so pleased with them that they have also ordered some.

There are also going to be commissioned shortly as I have been requested to take in my beaded jewellery catalogue next time and also some other designs which I am able to make.

I am really glad that some of my jewellery is selling as it seem like an age since I sold one and was beginning to think I was going to have to give them as Christmas gifts to relatives....

Those of you who have suffered with Depression will understand how I am feeling and those of you who haven't are soooooo lucky.

My Depression has been coming and going for the past couple of years, sometimes it doesn't affect me very much and others (like now) it is really scary and I feel like I am in a big black hole and am never going to be able to climb out of it.

I know why my depression has gotten worse right now (blame the infertility and PMS) but it still doesn't make it any easier. My GP's solution is Prozac and I really don't want to take it as it may hinder my chances at being able to adopt (if it ever comes to it), so it looks like I am going to have to try and cope on my own.

I have begun taking St John's Wort in a hope that it will help. I am on day 2 of taking them and at the moment I am not seeing any difference. I have also begun taking Evening Primrose Oil to help my PMS, but again am not noticing any difference, but it is probably too soon to tell....

All I want to do is go to sleep and not wake up until I feel better. The thoughts which are racing through my head are pretty scary and since hubby is working nights I am all on my own to cope with them when they are at their worst...

As I am writing this, I am having to stop every now and again as my crying gets pretty bad. I have tried to explain how I feel to hubby but despite his trying to understand the best he can, he has no idea how awful it is, only someone who suffers with Depression truly knows how it feels, and right now it feels really bad......

I made a joke earlier on about feeling as depressed as the weather (it has been pouring down with rain all day and is like a winter's day). The rain outside is just matching my tears....

Friends have suggested my seeing a counsellor but as I know what my problems are there is no point and my track record with counsellors has not been very positive so I am very hesitant to go down that route....

SOOOOO, Drugs and Counselling are not options, sooo what do you all suggest??????

In the meantime, I guess all I can do is look forward to another day/week/month like today and hope that I begin to feel better soon and these terrible thoughts become good thoughts soon (before it is too late!!!!)

Finally, here are the rest of my pictures from the Lake District from the end of June when I went to Woolfest 2009.

The first lot of photos were taken from the hotel in Whitehaven.

The next lot are from Keswick and as you can tell it was a glorious day. It was soooooo hot, you wouldn't believe it.

And finally here are the pictures from Windermere.

We had such a lovely time sitting, eating ice cream looking at the lake that I really did not want to leave there and come home.

As you can tell from the pictures, we had a brilliant time and are really looking forward to going back next June for Woolfest 2010......

Finally, as promised, here are the Woolfest 2009 photos.

As usual, there were loads of sheep and alpacas and the "sheep" for the auction were absolutely gorgeous and some went for mega money.

I had an absolutely wonderful day at Woolfest and bought some gorgeous "silk bricks" to spin and some silk/bamboo roving also to spin.

There was such an array of roving it was difficult to choose which to buy and bring home with me.

I used the "Ashford Spinning Chair" (which hubby bought me as part of my Birthday present) today and am really happy with it. Having a back on it really helps as having something to support my back whilst spinning takes the strain off of my back and I also found I spun a bit more evenly.

Over the next week I will post pictures of Windermere, Keswick and Whitehaven and also some pics of my latest skeins of handspun/hand-dyed fleece.